I haven’t blogged since 2016 when my world was turned upside down when my mom, dad and grandmother died unexpectedly within a 10-day period.
I was crushed…devastated…depressed. Words cannot describe the level of despair I felt. I spent all of 2016 in a cloud. I stopped enjoying all of the things I once loved. Why blog when my mom was the only one who read my posts? Why run if I may die young like my parents (my mom was only 59). What was the point? There were days I couldn’t get out of bed. I gained ~20 lbs.
In 2017, I slowly rose from the fog. As each day passed, I could see a little clearer. I got back on the road, and slowly, started running again. I signed up for the Chicago Marathon, ran a half marathon a month.
Then my son had spinal fusion surgery in May to correct his congenital scoliosis. It’s a long story, that I will share one day, but bottom line is that I thought I was going to lose him and he had a few unexpected complications. I was brought to my knees once again and I realized I had post traumatic stress disorder from losing my mom, dad and grandmother all within two weeks.
It was a huge set-back in my grieving process, but through continuing to run and train for the Chicago Marathon, I got my joy back. I lost 40 lbs. and regained my confidence.
2016 may have brought me to my knees, but I’m back, stronger than ever.
I plan to run 2018 miles in 2018. I will run the Disney Princess Half Marathon in February, run through Italy in May run, train for the Chicago Marathon and run the Disney Wine and Dine Half Marathon in November.
I am currently pursuing my second Masters degree; an MFA in Creative Writing at Queens University of Charlotte. And I plan to publish my book in 2018.
I plan to blog on Run Disney Mom again and share my experience in overcoming grief through running. I hope you join me in my journey.
2018 is going to be an amazing year and I can’t wait to share it with you all.